don't believe everything you read

a good breakfast

2006-04-11T19:47:00.000-07:00

a good breakfast = bacon n eggs n toast

but i still stick by ron's words of wisdom - "supper is the most impt meal of the day"

band name

2005-12-14T12:19:00.000-08:00

Your Band Name is:

The Puffy Masochists

Band Name Generator

comments

2005-11-08T22:35:00.000-08:00

still no entry yet.. but wanted to paste the comments i've been receiving over here.. cos they seem quite interesting... don't want to lose them when more comments are added...

angie: smiles! blog leh...
bigafeet: wah lao blog leh!
fen: eat more dark choc+ smile more, it cures depression.tc k :P
fen: if nt i'll b so sads nah- -BIG HUGS- ur the best! + tnx 4 owis being there
fen: wah my dear kor ah.. hw can u type so depressing things 2 days aft my bdae!!luckily u no xiang bu kai-
-jOy-: wow.it made me think too.
N-E-K-O: bleh
bigafeet: why no mood?
conditionred: no mood to blog
kb: mr lee... very long never blog liao leh... what happened to u??

What is Stopping Me From Killing Myself Right Now?

2005-07-18T08:46:00.000-07:00

it's been exactly a month since i've blogged, sometimes there are really so much to say but u just find it so difficult to type everything down

perhaps one of the lessons which have left me with the deepest impression would be a sociology class which i had not too long ago... the tutor was trying to explain about why individuals behave in a certain way and not another... so he started to write down the statement "what’s stopping you from killing urself right now"

my initial answer would be pain, not knowing where I would go after I die and "having to actually find a knife and stab myself is really troublesome"

but then he started to write several key-words next to his statement which brought about another perspective... words like "family", "friends", "beer" and "love" started to appear... he himself started to circle the words which meant the most to him and he had a BOLD circle over love

as for myself, if I would to do the exercise right now, I don't really know what words to choose

i'm not really close to my family and yes, I know my parents have put in so much in bringing me up, but sometimes all I want is just a hug from dad or for my mom to hold my hand

as for friends, i've seen more then my fair share of friends coming and going and betrayals... friends really are only human beings and they let you down sometime or another

perhaps music can be put into consideration, how it affects my emotions.. but really, what good are your emotions when die?

as for love, well don’t even go there...

what's stopping me from killing myself right now? i've actually experienced what it is like for someone you know to commit suicide... my classmate just killed herself not too long ago and the devastation it brought to her family was immense and i would not wish that on my family, it would simply be too unfair for them to have put in so much to bring up a kid and have it all put to waste

but really, selfish as it may sound, should i embrace death, the world as i know it will cease to exists along with any feelings or sadness or guilt so that really ain’t a big factor if u see it from that perspective

so really, what is it?

Top 3 Movies of 2005 (so far)

2005-06-19T05:25:00.000-07:00

1. Batman Begins
2. My Boyfriend is B Type
3. Lemony Snicket's Series of Unfortunate Events

it's rare for me to really like any show from start to finish.. surprisingly, the above 3 mentioned filems managed to fill the void...

uni lurve

2005-04-12T00:34:00.000-07:00

this was reported in the sunday times yesterday...

but for those of u who don't know, it's about a lecture in NUS, and the lecturer suddenly...

aiyah nvm u see for urself

http://ia108010.us.archive.org/3/items/NUS_28_March_2005/ma1506.avi

and here's the gal's blog

http://crapofcw.blogspot.com/2005/03/random-thoughts-i-think-that-i-should.html

talk more abt this later

conflict conflake ii

2005-04-10T16:43:00.000-07:00

wow amazing... it's been such a long time since someone used my tagboard *hint hint*. but now that someone has, she has written some pretty interesting (and relevant) stuff. thanks for the feedback.

so let's put this down as a regular entry before people start flooding the tagboard (and we now how highly probable that is) and what she wrote gets pushed down to oblivion.

-jOy-: well.coflicts happen to be my proj topic.so i had to say my peace(pun intended).
-jOy-: but i wld agree on thrashing out in most situations
-jOy-: well.there's 5 approaches to resolving conflicts. 1.accomodating 2.avoiding 3.problem solving 4.dominating 5.compromising so..actually.there's no one best way to resolve. it'situational.

besides point 2, which i would highly not recommend (read previous post), every other point mentioned needs both parties to communicate (at least) to be effective

point 1, to be accomodating would mean that you would either have to have a very high level of tolerance (very rare in human beings) or crudely put, you're just gonna suck everything up. and we all knows wat happens to balloons (and condoms) when u continuously pump them up with air.

point 3, problem solving requires you to know the problem in the first place. how 2 know the problem by not communicating?

point 4, you can probably dominate another person just by actions and not words, so this is probably still up for debate.

point 5, which is the goal i try to attain to deal with every conflict, surely requires communication. compromising is for both parties to so called "each take a step back" and accepting each other's opinions. communication surely needed for this one.

so i'm just saying it's there's a problem, talk about it, no point ignoring it or hiding it from the other person, hoping that it will go away.

because in most cases, it will not.

conflict conflake

2005-04-10T05:39:00.000-07:00

i think ppl really need to talk and communicate more, more so when there is an issue or a problem to solve. different ppl handle conflict differently. some try to avoid it totally by not talking abt it while other ppl (like me) want to solve it ASAP or at least know what's going on. granted that "some things are best left unsaid", but this certainly does not apply to everything. running from a problem doesn't solve the problem.

while i can't possibly change everybody's mind about thrashing things out, i strongly feel it's one of (if not the best) way of solving a conflict, when all the cards are laid on the table. i've learnt that some ppl can be a bit too unrealistic. for example, u may be angry at someone and that's alright but the problem really comes when the other person doesn't even know what you are angry abt. people cant read your mind. and just because you're angry with that person, you start to avoid/ignore/curse him/her behind his/her back ===> but all these 1) do not solve the problem at hand 2) the person may not even know what you are angry about 3) you make things unnecessarily awkward which makes talking abt the issue at hand even more difficult. so if u do have a problem with something, do talk about it. maybe not today or the next or the day after day, but do it sometime soon before it gets too big

yes, i do believe in a cooling off period and i know people do think more clearly and talk more rationally once both sides are given some time to calm down, thus i do not advocate addressing the conflict immediately or soon after it happens. but surely something is wrong when u let it drag for weeks or months, if at all that it is mentioned.

some conflicts perhaps are difficult to solve or may even seem impossible to do so, especially it's been talked about some many times. but surely you don't give up on things just because it gets a bit diffcult. and though it may sound repetitive or even irritating, i feel it's always good to talk about things.

a related issue is honesty. while tact may be important, in that you have to choose your words carefully, the essence of what is really going on should not be covered up or ignored. i would rather deal with a person who is blunt than a person who makes everything seem ok on the surface but yet sweeps everything under the carpet, only to have me uncover the carpet later when everything under it starts to pile up. and very much often than not, i do find the carpet. call it my sixth sense, but i tend to find these things (even though i don't really want to) fairly easily. that perhaps is the pro (but i feel more like a con) of being a sensitive person. sometimes overly sensitive i have to admit.

not really referring to anybody in particular really because surely more than 50% of the people who know me and has read this would think that i'm referring to them. but do believe me when i say this isn't personal.

but the issue of "how YOU deal with conflict" is surely something worth reflecting about. and yes this time i'm referring to YOU staring at the screen.

gone too soon...

2005-04-03T03:56:00.000-07:00

just read in the news today that the lady i've been writing abt in my past few entries, terri, has passed away... this is really quite sad news becos her life ended under very painful conditions... but let's not tok abt that...

my wish for her is that she has moved on to a better place...

euthanasia 2

2005-03-26T05:33:00.000-08:00

this is kinda linked to my previous post on euthanasia... cos i think i kinda reported it wrongly...

so this is the case...

the lady i was reading abt is called terri and she's been like paralysed for the past 10-20 years and she's been surviving on this machine which helps to keep her alive.. wats impt is the feeding tube which helps to provide her body with the nutrients she needs

so IT IS HER HUSBAND, who wants the tube removed, becos he felt that that was not the way she wanted to carry on her life... as a vegetable... but based on the reports i read, it kinda gives me the impression that he just doesn't wan to take care of her anymore or its gotta do with $$$... but he has claimed that doctors' test have confirmed that there is no chance of recovery for terri

meanwhile, her parents want the tube to stay the way it is, as they have claimed that they have seen her smile and shown some reaction whenever they go visit her and they hope they she will be able to recover soon

so anyway, the latest is that the judge in the state ordered for the tube to be removed but meanwhile the president has signed an emergency thingy which allows for the tube to be connected back again while they sort things out...

and cos of this incident there has been a rise in the number of people seeking to write their own living wills...

so the million dollar qn is.. if u were paralysed.. would u still wanna live on? or would u rather die?

for me, if it's been certified that i have absolutely no chance of recovery, i guess i'll choose to die... since my brain no longer allows me to feel pain n i won't know wat's going on anyway.. but if there's a chance to recover then hey just take it... but i'm not sure wat's the christian take on this issue though... maybe need to check up more on it...

quiz time

2005-03-16T18:37:00.000-08:00

i made a quiz a few years back... but i think it should be lost by now... so i made a new one... take it to know more abt me... it's a tough one though... muahahaha

my quiz
http://www.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz_IM.php?quizname=050315173317-179597

the scoreboard

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/scoreboard.php?quizname=050315173317-179597

euthanasia

2005-03-15T06:49:00.000-08:00

guess this issue has been on my mind a bit, esp after watching million dollar baby... and i just read an article in the papers today that a lady who has been brain dead but kept alive for the past 15 years by a life-support system has actually been ordered to well, die... her husband had actually made a promise to her to keep her alive and he has kept that promise all these while even though he actually had been offered up to US$10 mil to pull the plug... unfortunately, a judge has passed the order 4 the tubes to be disconnected next fri...

but the thing abt mercy killing is... what would u do if u became a vegetable and were paralysed... would u still wanna live on? or would rather die? i guess it would be really hard for me to decide on this, esp when i'm not placed in this kind of situation (fortunately) and it's easy to say what u wanna do but when the situation is placed b4 u and there are so many things to consider... i've never really been a fan of "what would u do if his/her situation" becos basically i know watever answer one may give, it isn't very accurate cos the matter of the fact is, you aren't in the situation, so it's pretty hard to imagine wat its like...

and well i was just told today that i won't understand abt some issue becos i'm not faced with that issue... which is kinda true to a certain extent... but i guess it still does hurt to hear it, esp when it's from someone u really care abt n u wanna show some understanding and concern, but yet u cant really emphatise...

"i can't emphatise but i can surely sympathise"
-condition ReD

good n bad.. but more of the bad

2005-02-25T21:13:00.000-08:00

ok 1st the good news...

wu bai and china blue are finally coming to perform... may 7th indoor stadium... been wanting to catch them live but nvr had a chance even though they've already come to sg abt 3-4 times... they have a very good bassist and i've been wanting for the longest time to catch them... and furthermore, tix can be obtained by just exchanging a certain number of guiness ring tabs... not that i drink but at least it seems cheaper than paying outright...

k the VERY bad news...

yes... may 7th is the sat just before my main exam in may... this is THE exam, the one which i've been studying the whole year for, so can't screw up... and tat means.. that i can't go for the above =
hmm... tough luck...

i think sg really needs to have more concerts, they seem to be so few being organised... my last one, if i remember correctly, was the linkin park one at the padang.. and that one, IMO, wasn't that gr8...

why u need a casino to boost the economy when we can be the concert hub of SEA... more concerts = more tourist = better for the economy, without the so called "-ve social effects" resulting from a casino..

MSN dos and don'ts... more of the don'ts

2005-02-21T03:32:00.000-08:00

ok for the record.. i didnt win a single cent from toto cos my numbers only had one winning number.. so i can't treat anybody anything... =

but back to the real stuff...

in my... (er, 6+?) years of online conversations... ICQ n MSN.. i have to state something which has been buggin me for a while...

when someone asks u a question online... DO NOT type "huh?"... its like one of the most irritating things u can ever reply to a person.. unless the guy asking the question really has a atrocious command of english... in my case, it's really quite stupid cos when i ask a qn, and the other party goes "huh?", i just basically cut n paste wat i just typed, and almost immediately the other guy/gal seems to know wat i'm saying already.. it's like u're reading the same thing TWICE... if u dun get wat i'm saying just read wat i typed AGAIN then...

the next most irritating thing to reply, which i'm sure applies to face-to-face conversations too, is "why?" sheesh, i mean like i'm the one asking the question... so just tell me the answer or not.. dun counter-pose me a question instead... i know of a few people who r really guilty of this and maybe that's why i try to avoid msning them altogether... but i'm sure a lot of u reading this know wat i mean...

ok so now u know my msn pet peeves... so don't use it on me...

"huh?"

i said so now u know my msn pet peeves... so don't use it on me...

"why?"

#@$@%

TOTOTOTOTO

2005-02-15T23:44:00.000-08:00

ok.. finally bought the correct toto ticket for the correct draw happening this thurs...

i remember as a kid, i actually told my dad... "hey winning the toto is easy just pick 6 numbers and they are sure to appear" and then he told me to try for myself... write on a piece of papaer 6 numbers from 1-45 and see how many of them appear... i didn't actually do it cos i guess my dad was right...

so the qn is.. how hard is it to select 6 numbers that are all winning numbers? well, i just got the answer today... 1 in 8,000,000... yup u read it right... 1 in 8 million.. considering how slim that chance is, the winning jackpot amount of 1-3 million bucks doesnt seem to be a reasonable payoff... but this thur's draw is going for 10 million so that kinda changes things a bit, but every year the amount is usually split among several parties.. so that brings u back to the original amt of 1-3 mil again...

but anyway just for the sake of those who don't know much abt toto.. u actually pick 6 numbers.. and 7 numbers are actually drawn... 6 winning numbers + 1 "additional" number... u need at least 4 numbers to match, to win at least $20...

i've heard of ppl who go through their whole lives w/o winning a single lucky draw, so yup i guess since i've won quite a few draws b4, i'm considered quite lucky...

but hey, don't expect to win the lottery, but as li quo huang mentioned in the best bet... "u may not win any cash when u bet.. but if u don't bet, u definitely won't win anything"...

haha.. yes, a blog entry to justify my gambling...

vday

2005-02-15T02:13:00.000-08:00

bought my 1st $1 TOTO ticket today...

and (1) i bought for thw wrong draw date, cos i wanted to buy the CNY thurs draw which has a jackpot for $10 mil (2) turns out my ticket had 3 winning numbers... but u need at least 4 to win some cash... oh well... didn't really expected to win, just for fun...

just for the sake of interest.. i actually asked one of those ppl standing around how much do their roses cost... and turns out that a single stalk sets u back $6 and a bouquet $20... kinda cheap actually cos i was expecting them to cost more..

but then i was just wondering wat these ppl do to their flowers after vday when nobody wans to buy them anymore.. throw away? hmm.. thats quite a waste...

but today kinda gave me a new perspective abt vday... i used to think the "most miserable" feeling would be just to be single and alone on vday... turns out there's something worse.. it's actually to have a other 1/2 (ie. bf/gf) but not get to spend it with him/her...

big day 2

2005-01-31T01:27:00.000-08:00

k lets go straight to the point... the performance!!!

eh well it was kinda funny cos i rushed on stage 1st when it was our turn... but had to run off the stage to find the previous bassist cos i couldnt find the cable to the bass amp... tot he purposely tried to sabo me cos he actually turned off the volume during the sound check in the morning.. but turned out that he's actually quite a great guy... the singer/bassist from DEAD END actually followed me back on stage to help me find the cable, check that everything was ok for me and b4 he left he actually said "hey have fun".. wah such a nice guy.. too bad didnt ask for his name..

was amazed by the crowd support... thx again to all of my friends who cheered for us... lots of ppl were actually clapping for us when it was our turn to perform... b4 the song started... saw my parents to my left.. so waved at them... and they waved back which was great cos i waved at them during the prelims but they didnt see me.. yup also happy that i managed to see angie quek at the right side of the stage n we waved at each other =) helped me to calm down... waved at my stansfield frens too but guess they tot i wasnt waving at them, cos got no reaction....

the feeling on stage was simply amazing.. it's probably the biggest performance i will ever have in this lifetime... u can just see lots of people gathering around...

once onstage, everything happens so fast, u don't even have time to think.. and for me i was struggling with that becos i was trying to remember the notes to play for the next few verses in advanced.. plus wanted to move around too becos didnt want to just stone there (ala hall jam band days)... and well played a few wrong notes.. but everyone i asked in the audience claimed they couldn't tell the difference...

but it was kinda amusing cos i actually climbed up in front of the drums 1/2 way through the song to vary my movements abit and when tat wee the drummer saw me, he was smiling.. but it was then that i played a wrong note =p so i quickly got off the platform in front of the drums... n i guess my confidence was shaken cos its better to stone n play the right notes.. rather than move n jump around when wrong basslines keep coming out of the amplifier.. so i decided to play it safe by just making minimal movements... and well i guess my biggest regret was not jumping on stage.. even though i practised it like many many times, both at home and at the studio during jam sessions

but overall it was an unforgettable nite... one that i will remember all my life.. i mean like FWAH performing at orchard rd in front of a crowd of at least 500... i didnt expect to win so when the results were announced n we didnt get into the top3.. i wasnt too disappointed...

so (i know i've said this like 100 times) overall, it was truly an amazing nite and an experience to nvr forget in this lifetime... thanks to my band mates valren pseudo, kerri pseudo, tat wee pseudo and alex pseudo for have worked so hard with me the past month... and would just like to tell u guys i'm gonna miss jamming with u ppl, cos we all gonna be busy.. but hope we can resume again sometime soon

BIG DAY

2005-01-30T04:20:00.000-08:00

wat an amazing day... woke up real early n still awake now... but its really a nite to nvr forget... the performance was great.. but personally, i think i'm more happy about the support shown by all my friends who turned up... friends who i have mentioned about to other friends, didn't really get a chance to meet each other before today...

so let me try to recollect the events yesterday (since its past midnite)

woke up at 9am to reach ngee ann city by 1030am for soundcheck... and well the sound engineer didnt really do a good job... at least that was wat the other pseudos felt... for my bass it was ok lah... but anyhow, after soundcheck we went back to the studio to jam our songs one more time... and we started to wear our performance attire... was really fun cos kerri started applying eyeliner for all the guys and to honest, i actually like it =p ya i always like conspicuous stuff

so anyway we left the studio around 430pm... reached taka around 5... shared a subway sandwich with tat wee cos i know i always get too nervous b4 a performance to eat (but ya anyway i only ate like 4-5 bites of it b4 i threw the whole thing away)

TO BE CONTINUED...

18 hours and counting

2005-01-29T01:25:00.000-08:00

yes yes.. its the nite before the big day.. and i'm all exicited abt it!!! ya i was actually having this 1/2 nervous breakdown this afternoon in class.. not that anybody noticed.. but i was tinking abt performing at orchard road.. and the many pairs of eyes that will be staring at us.. at me.. and i was just... shaking...

anyway.. gotta reach taka tmr at 1030am tmr for soundcheck.. so early =

honestly, still not too confident abt my own basslines.. but wat matters the most is how i cover it up =p so let's see tmr...

wedding!!!

2005-01-28T01:38:00.000-08:00

relak.. i'm not getting married yet.. but its funny how similar i find this sat's jamx to my wedding...

basically, like my dad once said.. when u invite ppl to go to ur wedding and they do turn up, it's kinda like giving u face.. becos they have to sit through 3-4 hours of the dinner and they have to give a big fat ang pao which is really a lot to pay for a 9-10 course dinner...

somehow i'm beginning to feel like inviting ppl to come on sat is like asking ppl to come to my wedding... and its really quite amazing the different replies ppl are able to come up with... funny that some hi-bye frens are actually more interested to go than my other friends who i always thought were "closer" to me... is it so hard to come to TAKASHIMAYA on a saturday nite? besides the indoor stadium, national stadium and suntec city, taka is perhaps the most grand n accessible place on our tiny island.. and eh if u cant turn up.... well...

guess i know who's gonna turn up at my wedding and who's not... hur hur

jamx prizes

2005-01-28T01:18:00.000-08:00

check out the prizes for jamx... good ya? i not really interested in the cash n vouchers.. but check out the LIME thingy...

3rd - $100 Lee Jeans vouchers, $100 cash, Fotopro recording vouchers, 1 Eastpakback pack for every member.

2nd - $200 Lee Jeans vouchers, $200 cash, Fotopro recording vouchers, 1 Eastpakback pack for every member.

1st - $300 Lee Jeans vouchers, $300 cash, Fotopro recording vouchers, 1 Eastpakback pack for every member, a guitar pack and a recording contract. Moreover,Lime (main sponser) will invite the champion band for all its gigs in futureperformances. A token of appreciation be given of course. There will also be aninterview for the champion band that will be publish in the magazine. Exposurewill be GREAT!

once upon a time...

2005-01-27T17:15:00.000-08:00

the jamx dream actually started 2 years back when my jie chiou yu asked me to accompany her to support her fren egon... he was performing for the jamx 2003 finals outside HMV... his band was not only musically talented, but onstage they did had a planned routine... so it was just the music, it was visually entertaining too.. they reached the top 3 if my memory doesnt fail me... but it was then... that i had this high and it was then that i had a dream... a dream to perform in public... but not just anywhere... but at ORCHARD ROAD...

well... who would have known, in a span of 2 years, through a mix of surprising events, i finally get to realise my dream this saturday =)

the current week has been moving slower than i originally thought it would go, becos good things seem to zoom pass u in a blink of an eye... so i'm trying my best to savour the busy week of preparation prior to the big day on sat...

my motto for every performance is to "always give the audience a good time", and maybe that explains the extremes i'm able to go to to fulfill that...

so see u ppl on sat... let's have a rockin' good time =]

800 and counting...

2005-01-23T20:48:00.000-08:00

just did my own research on the jamx finals.. seems that jamx finals 2004 was held at the atrium... still dunno where that is... but it attracted 800+ ppl... as reported... FWAH.. that means this year... at taka its gonna be more than that??

wah stress is an understatement...

tired tired fingers...

2005-01-23T04:45:00.000-08:00

the past few days have been quite exhausting but fun... we jammed n stayed overnite on thurs... and i actually just came back from the studio again... would u believe that we actually spent 11 hours in the studio??? not all the time was spent jamming though.. quite a portion of it was spent waiting for the jamming rooms to be vacant so that we could take over and practise... but i must say the time spent there has been good for the band to bond...

the song is taking shape... and we have added our own touch to it... changed the arrangement here n there... so its beginning 2 sound pretty good.. but i guess we can all work further more on it to make it sound tighter...

more jams on wed and fri b4 the big day on sat... can u feel the excitement in the air??? this is definitely a week which i will remember for the rest of my life

oh ya, and my fingers are real cramped n tired... which explains the title of this entry...

2005-01-18T05:12:00.000-08:00

band poster.. quite nice ah??

2005-01-18T05:09:00.000-08:00

the debut of the pesudos!!!

final 8!!!

2005-01-17T01:23:00.000-08:00

yeah baby!!! u read it right.. the pseudos have made it to the final 8.. out of 41!!! woohooo.. takashimaya here we come... really very very excited over it... my dream has come true... this is certainly one of the highlights of my life...

the performance today was gr8... like the band discussed earlier... doesnt matter if we reach finals.. most impt is we felt good abt the song.. and yup it felt good.. after ths song i tink i went crazy.. just punched the air n was like "YEAH"... or ya my parents went.. so nice of them.. and thx to angeline shunfen justin amelia darren zong trixie xuefen kk for all coming down... thx to britnee also who gave a good luck sms.. and benita too...

now the "headache" starts.. cos we need to prepare for another song for the finals.. but this has really been a good day...

didnt really expect to enter the finals.. n didnt wan to hope 4 too much in case get disappointed... which i seem to have been the past few weeks over many stuff = but hey, this is a very pleasant change... they called out our name like 2nd last and it was really very intense nervousness felt on my side.. but it was fantastic when they called out "the pseudos"!!! almost couldnt believe it.. in fact, i'm still trying 2 recover... or maybe it hasnt sunk it yet...

but here's to a great nite =)

its tmr!!! oh wait.. its today!!!

2005-01-16T02:29:00.000-08:00

went to check out jamx day 1 just now.. saw about 10+ bands performing.. quite a number of them had quite rubbishy songs.. haha.. they were just... tuneless... full of meaningless lyrics... seems like some of the songs were just for the guitarists/bassists to show of their skills.. not much of a song really...

but there were a few good ones.. one in particular was the cac band from ntu.. and haha the drummer was henry!!! he used to play with in the hall band... his band was the best...

valren remains very optimistic about our chances.. but in my opinion... i really have no idea... i'm not sure what the judges are looking for... if they want a song which is good techinically with lots of skill etc.. i think we lose out on that.. but if they want a nice, simple like-able song.. i think we stand a chance =)

really hope we can reach the finals.. go taka to perform!!! but trying not to hope too much so that won't be disappointed...

go PSEUDOs!!

this sun this sun

2005-01-14T03:41:00.000-08:00

its funny how many ppl think i'm a slacker... most ppl back in hall 11 and my parents feel that way... but the truth is when my mind is set on something really impt, all my heart, sweat blood and soul goes into it... and it's quite ironic that i was the hardest working block rep during my service but yet it went unnoticed... and ppl still dun recognise my efforts... popularity seems to be more impt than hard work in hall.. but that's another story

anyway this sunday has gotten me all excited... but living, thinking and breathing jamx... even got a very outrageous haircut for this sunday in the hope that the band can stand out... and been telling everyone i've been in contact with about the performance... oh boy oh boy oh boy...

but part of me also holds back, telling myself not to put in so my effort and hope because it may all come to an end if we don't make it to the final 8...

sometimes its good to be pessimistic... so when the outcome turns out bad, you have already been mentally prepared and if it turns out better than expected, all the better...

life... and wat u want out of it

2005-01-12T01:15:00.000-08:00

do u have a list of what u wanna do in this life? so then when u have done them all, you have no regrets? ok lah... don't really need to have "a list"... but at least think about some things which u wanna do in this lifetime... for me, i've always thought about this... while "marrying the one i love" seems to be a distant or even improbable event (looking from how things are turning out so far), "performing in public" at least has the chance of seeing light this sunday...

its has been my fortune to be able to be invited to perform with quite a number of talented musicians... valren's original song sounds really quite catchy... joining us are also alex who has came up with the song's guitar solo... tat wee the drummer who is consistent and has the ability to highlight parts of the song with his beat... and kerri who sounds like tanya chua and has actually played in a pub before (wah my dream job)

we are called the PSEUDOs.. and we will be performing at the youthpark on 16th jan (this sun) at 7+pm...

but happy stuff aside... its always sad when the people u invite don't turn up...

wat's a story when there's no bothy to read it? wat's a movie when there's nobody to watch it? and most importantly, wats a band performance when there's nobody to watch?

while of cos there will certainly be some people there.. but wat i'm tokking abt are the people in your life whom u actually invite and hope they turn up... but some just don't...

and its hard to perform when you know they won't be there...

tsuuunnami

2005-01-05T01:35:00.000-08:00

really feel quite sad abt the tsunami incident... its like there's over a few hundred k ppl losing their lives... and i always feel this sense of sadness whenever something like this happens... i felt it 1st during the sept 11 period... and i always have this very uneasy feeling whenever i watch war movies or documentaries where there is just numerous ppl dying...

but perhaps wat i'm abt to say may be contradicting wat i have mentioned above...

u see... lots of aid has been pouring in from various countries... in terms of $$, food, wat have u... but the truth is, death is happening everywhere... its just that the tsunami has had more publicity and media coverage... wat abt other parts of the world where thousands of ppl die in africa or maybe cambodia where war is raging? what aid has been given to them?

it kinda reminds me of the missing child case in the news recently... it was H**** Na wasn't it? i mean it's like i'm sure that there are kids who get lost in singapore... and their parents are worried too... but HN gets the public's sympathy and attention becos she has more media coverage... i'm not saying that she didnt deserve being worried abt, or her parents to not receive the sympathy they have thus so far received... but what abt the other kids...

so basically i think what i'm trying to say is.. for every dollar u donate to the red cross for tsunami victims, also remember that a dollar is also needed in other parts of the world... and just becos u don't see it, doesn't means it doesn't happen...

fav FRENS

2004-12-23T16:16:00.000-08:00

was watching reruns of FRIENDS on cable tv last nite... and they were showing the 2nd (or 3rd) season... cant remember and it was then thay i realised that they were showing my FAVOURITE episode... i remember 1st watching it back in JC like 6-7 years ago? and seeing it last nite made me tear just like it did the 1st time i saw it...

basically, the part of the episode which i'm talking about is towards the end of the show, when the whole gang is sitting ard the sofa, watching this tape which was a video shoot of rachel's and monica's prom nite... rachel 1st appeared with her big nose and then fat monica appears out of the kitchen... and later we get a shot of ross with his curly hair n moustache... and if u follow FRIENDS, you will know that ross had this crush on rachel ever since like.. forever

so anyway, turns out that monica's date arrived later in the evening but rachel's didn't... so ross' mom n dad encouraged ross to take her to the prom instead... initially reluctant, ross then proceeded to change into his dad's tuxedo... when he came out, he was smartly dressed but nervous abt taking the girl of his dreams to the prom... he took a moment to calm himself down and told himself "be cool, just be cool"... he then took this bunch of flowers from a nearby vase and started to walk down the stairs to meet rachel...

but... as he was 1/2 way down the stairs... it turns out that rachel's date did turn up afterall... and so the 4 of them (monica, rachel n their dates) rushed pass ross and went out the front door... the video cam then turned to ross.. who had a real disappointed look on his face... following which ross' dad asks for the video cam to be turned off.. and thats the end of the clip...

real sad... because to me i guess i can relate to that.. the loser guy liking the gal of his dreams and he ends up doing something sweet but silly, only to end up being disappointed... so maybe that's why it seems to affect me double whenever i see this kind of scences on tv or movies...

but at least for the FRIENDS episode it had a good ending, because after seeing the tape, rachel was real touched and she walked up to ross and gave his this really passionate kiss on the lips...

but of cos that's just a tv show, with a good ending... and life doesn't always have good endings.. well at least not in my case at the moment...

*this is dedicated to all the silly guys out there with a gal they like but they can't be with, hope u all have ur happy endings*

3hrs in the k

2004-12-20T22:13:00.000-08:00

chin guan n weiliang stayed over at my place last nite.. and we actually caught up with our army fren jason... spent the evening drinking kopi and exchanging army stories abt our experiences in our different units after we all parted ways in BMT...

jason, like me, held an admin job in army... and after hearing abt how he dealt with politics and other troubles made me re-confirm that PR skills are really impt in army and later on when i start to work... it's much easier to get things done when u know the right ppl and u are able to prove urself...

we then spend the time from midnite to 3am ktving at kbox... and chin guan was able to display his wide vocal range n prowess, which made me even more sure abt why i chose him to sing for my non-college band which is still un-named...

it's really fun to have cg n wl over for a sleep over... when we just spend time together... but i'm just wondering when will this all come to an end... there isn't a limit to the legal age for sleep overs... but we are all now... and i don't really forsee us doing this when we are like 50+... imagine ur dad (or grand-dad) going over to his fren's place for a sleep over to play videogames n hang out... but i guess i will just have to take all this time we spend together and treasure it even more...

yes yes i puked

2004-12-15T14:32:00.000-08:00

went to escape theme park yesterday... was kinda apprehensive becos had this feeling that i would puke after going on the rides... and boy was i right...
just sat the go kart thingy... and then this ride which had u lying with ur tummy down and it goes round n round.. and that's when it started... became intensely dizzy and threw up a few times...

the scientific explanation for this motion sickness is actually due to the smallest bone in ur body... which can be found in ur inner ear.. so when wat u see and when the motion that the bone detects doesnt coincide... ur brain gets mixed signals and thats when the trouble starts... not everyone is affected by it... but ppl like me who are more sensitive abt this kind of thing do...

guess i'm just made a sensitive guy... more sensitive sense of smell, hearing and even though i'm short sighted, tend to be pretty observant... also more emotionally sensitive but of cos thats a another story altogether

this just in

2004-12-09T18:10:00.000-08:00

wah shiok.. this giftset just came in.. its a PREDAKING from the transformers line... yes yes i know its a toy.. but its something i've been wanting ever since i was a kid... and there were many months of waiting and talk abt this re-issue before it finally came in today...

when i mean "came in today"... i mean that it just arrived in sg... not that i just bought it... its like in the SG$200 region la.. and i dun have that kind of $$ at the moment... so prob wont be getting it for a while...

but woo... nice ya?

2004-12-09T02:05:00.000-08:00

inside of the box

2004-12-09T02:04:00.000-08:00

wat i want for xmas

one hit wonders

2004-12-07T01:56:00.000-08:00

was watching channel v ard 5am+ many days ago... and they actually had a special program dedicated to one hit wonders... one hit wonders were actually defined as "artistes/bands who only have one hit that made it to the top 40 chart... and subsequent singles either nvr had the same success as their previous hit... or they just fade away"

examples? well one which i miss hearing for a while was "what's up" by the 4 non-blondes... remember hearing it when i was in sec sch.. didnt really like it then.. but its many year absence.. it was fondly missed.. another classic was "no rain" by blind melon...

i was trying to come up with a theory... that "the best songs are songs which came from one hit wonders"... but i soon realised that that wasnt necessarily true... for every one hit wonder hit u like.. u prob can come up with another fav which has been from a band enjoying success for years or even decades...

just compare vanilla ice with enimem.. white rappers.. but 2 very different success stories...

so anyway... this is just a small tribute to the one hit wonders who had songs which had short lived success in the music industry...

nothing much to add

2004-12-05T17:24:00.000-08:00

yup as u can see... i don't really write much... and the blog still needs a lot of adjustments... so feel free to just check in here... but not too often.. since there ain't gonna b much activity for a while

this is a test

2004-11-22T04:59:00.000-08:00

just playing around with this...